lucky me.

didn't gain any weight- didn't lose some either. but still lucks for not gaining any since i kinda had a small binge yesterday. weakness, your name's betty.
guess i'm kinda perfecting weakness these days. feeling weak and like shit. but all of this shit still gives me the drive to go on. continue the thing that i've started. i wont just sit there, happy about my lost 22lbs doing nopthing. i need to lose more. at least.. dunno...another 60 would be perfect. the more the better.

can't fast tomorrow,going to some thing similar to donating blood and i almost collapsed lat time i was there- because of fasting. so i'll just drink 2l of water, have a coke before i get there aaand eat some yoghurt-kinda-stuff which has only 67cal. it'll be okay then i guess.

well.. so i'm just gonna have a nice-quiet-beauty day. facial mask, doing my eyebrows (totally forgot about them these days :D ), taking a loooong shower, peeling. stuff like that. it'll make me feel god and kinda pretty again. maybe i'll even grab some water-ice later. i know this thing that only has 100cal or so. it'll be okay since i had abouuut... 300-350 today and my diet allows 500 to 700 and well i must not go under the limit. :) i'll just stick to the diet until may 2nd. and then i'll start the ABC and i'm pretty excited about it. looking forward. like.. yaay. and i WILL keep this diet. if i feel weak, i'll just rant. here. or on pt.

and then i'll just fast on tuesday and thursday and friday. i NEED to lose some weight til saturday. going out then. celebating a friend's b-day. i want to feel good about myself. well i know i will because of alcohol and drugs but i want to feel good about myself when i'm sober too. finally. for more than just hours or 1-2 days.

so.. be like a postage stamp- stick with it until you get there!