Day 3

Well the diet's pretty good til now. feeling good and yeah.. bit different too. i had to switch my weekend cals (500-700) wich the cals yesterday and on friday, because my plans for this week got messed up but i guess it's okay, as i am still keeping the limit and 100-300 on the weekend.

been working out every morning, except for today i was too tired to give my mom a ride to her working place because of my tryout days in this boarding school. well, i have to work today too and i think i'll go to the gym afterwards. but i kinda managed to hurt my knee on monday and it's still feeling just.. outch! anf that effects my work out. i try to ignore the pain but after 30 min it usually comes back. i hope this wil get better soon.

Try-outs at the boarding school were fine. like itt there, like the kids (altough i'd prefer a girl's group because the boys are just.. harder to work with :D) and now i'll just have to wait. i'll call them today to ask the chief until when they've made their desicion. *takemetakeme* i SO hope they call me and be like "we'd like you to work here" because the building's beautiful, the kids are quite nice too and i even got along with everyone and they even listened to me!! Never expected that! so i jjust hope that everything turns out fine for me. would be SO great and i finally could give my mom some money every month and do the grocerie shopping.. stuff like that. and i'd just have some money left for myself. need new stuff for my rooms..

anyways.. today's a fsting day and i'm curious what it'll be like. never really made to fast, not even for one day. yahw.. i'm a sissy. but i will do this today. no excuses, no "but me's so hungry" shit. if i want to look good i have to do something for it.

"beauty from pain" this quote always keeps me going...