63.

that's the number of calories for me today. i already had them, 'cause i have to go donating blood lateron and i don't want to collapse again.
and coke zero. right before they push the neeeeedle in.

anyway. I CAN FEEL MY COLLAR BONES. finally :D and there even is a little .. well.. gap? you know wat i mean, don't you? oh my god this is SO awesome. i haven't felt/seen them for years now. and it seems like all of this i sstarting to pay off. yesyesyes. THIS is so helping me with sticking to my diet/fasting. i feel so good today. better than yesterday... and lots of days before.

happyness....

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update: 16:13
well. i visited my aunt and uncle. and they made me eat a freakin schnitzel. a small one though but i hate myself for eating it but i know i just had to.
mom's crying and it's annoying me like shit. i know that this aint fair but i hate it when she cries. so i just tsay in my room and maybe get out here as soon as possible. dunno where tbh, but who cares anyway?
STOP crying. really.